Привезли мне вчера вечером зимние колеса, ну, я бросил их багажник и пошел домой делами заниматься. А когда ложился спать, черт меня дернул посмотреть в накладную, а там вместо 225/55 значилось 255/55, т.е. размерность другая. И вроде идти специально проверять влом, но в то же время хрен заснешь.

В итоге, все обошлось, а накладным веры нет. :)

М3 -- треш и пиздей (колея от фур, ямы, стыки), особенно от Калуги до Думиничей.
Через Мосальск, Барятино, Киров -- гораздо приятнее, но дольше и ночью тяжело, потому что не все повороты обозначены.

The Best Song of 2009?

Well tell me, how to define what's 'the best'?
Technique, atmosphere... genuine loveliness, perhaps - well, YOU tell Me???

TONS of genuine loveliness bestowed on me by all of my beloved favourite musicians in 2009 - and quite a lot by those that I didn't know at all before, either.
So, it's rather... hard to choose. Still I think this is a good one:

OMG - my vote goes to Aqua de Annique, aka Anneke Van Giersbergen & and her lovely band.



That song is just... immaculate. Sort of remembers me of the best tunes of Simon & Garfunkel, to be honest. It's not merely a lovely tune, the lyrics are kinda funny, too. It combines a Tear with a Laugh, and that's just what I genuinely admire about song lyrics, even more when they get carried out as beautifully as Anneke does over here...

The vid shows Anneke in her studio - adequately dubbed as 'The Aqua-rium', - with her lovely little son, it shows her getting tatoo'ed (gosh I'd wish I'd find that spirit to get me a new one as well!), it shows her on the plane to WhateverLand, it shows her having fun with her friends in the garden - her friends including Anathema's Daniel Cavanagh, it shows her with her dear friends of Portugese Gothic Band Moonspell - that gorgeous fellow named Fernando Ribeiro and wait a minute, Devin Townsend as well, no? - to name just a few... WOW, dear lady!!!
and did I recognize the Dalai Lama there as well? I hope it's just me...

What a life, how gorgeous, how lucky you are, dear Anneke!
But so much DESERVED, let that be clear. Anneke - you are such a talented person, but even more - so lovely...!!!

"Your eyes, your shoes,
It's hard to choose.
But the best thing about you,
Is the way that you move.

Side by side,
All through the night.
And the thing we dream the most about,
Is to see the morning light.

Hey Okay,
Why don't you stay another day?
And if it feels allright,
Will you stay another night?

Hey Allright,
Why don't you stay another night?
And if it feels Okay,
Will you stay another day?

Your place, or mine?
Whatever, it's fine -
Let's dance, let's sway,
The night away.

No Fear, no Shame,
We Play This Game.
And the best thing about it
is that I don't even know your name..."

This one's the Winner for 2009, I guess.
Even the more since I heard Anneke perform this truly lovely song performed LIVE together with Danny Cavanagh earlier this year at Eindhoven's Dynamo... see my review of that lovely concert over here. WOW man, I feel like bowing down... DEEP.

Quite *scary* to hear that that particular live perfomance with Daniel Cavanagh is in no way whatsoever anywhere worse to the official, ultimate CD release.

у меня сегодня :)

"Так поздно да еще с такими грошами", - сказала мне сегодня кассир в Линии, когда я расплачивался свежеполученной зарплатой.

Сереже привет! :))

Давным-давно мы резались в нее часами на лабораторках. Оказывается игрушка живее всех живых и у нее есть даже своя лига

Вы когда-нибудь собирали паззлы? Большие такие, серьезные паззлы? Я лично нет. Если только с детьми - детские. Однажды нам с братом подарили большой, красивый и яркий паззл с изображением старинной улочки европейского города со старым ярко-красным автомобилем. Мы сели его собирать. Неделю мучались, пытаясь сложить что-то путное, даже одной трети не сложили. Ну, до кучи кисер еще несколько раз попрыгал, весьма интересуясь, чем же это таким мы там заняты и почему без его участия. В общем, забросили мы это дело подальше на антресоль (или анресоли??? ща... нет, все-таки антресоль - ед.ч.ж.р.). Вот все это я к чему? К тому, что у любого рассказа должно быть введение.
Про работу в общем, щас будет. Пошла вторая неделя. С чего бы начать? Ну, давайте, продолжу про паззлы. Таки на этой неделе мне дали новую задачу. Заболел очередной координатор и его участок дали мне. Таки познание ОБИ на прошлой неделе - это цветочки. На этой неделе у меня забрали ОБИ и дали взамен Леруа и Кастораму. Вот тут я познала дзен... Понедельник - шоковая терапия. Вторник - реанимация. Сегодня - палата интенсивной терапии... Смысл в том, что когда перед вами много-много разрозненных кусочков одного большого паззла - вы пребываете в странном мироощущении. Вроде бы вы здесь, а вроде - в какой-то иной реальности. Вы перебираете каждый маленький кусочек, гладите его, вертите его в руках, пытаясь понять, где его место. Потом перекладываете их с места на место и теряете контроль над собой. Вам казалось, что все это достаточно просто, но стоило взяться за дело, как появились проблемы, вы начинаете в себе сомневаться, потом появляется злость на себя и на этот паззл, потом дикое желание вышвырнуть его в окно, распрощаться с человеком (читайте: организацией), предложивший данный паззл. В жутком состоянии вы оставляете его, чтобы завтра опять вернуться к начатому. Причем этот промежуток времени наполнен страхами и неуверенностью в себе. К следующему приему опускаются руки. Усилием воли поднимаешь их и берешься за дело, один за одним перекладывая кусочки паззла с место на место, поворачивая их, поглаживая... И в какой-то момент ЩЕЛК! и некоторые кусочки паззла встают на место. Из разрозненных маленьких кусочков появляются разрозненные кусочки побольше, но это уже результат! И потом по нарастающей, по нарастающей, пока не находися какой-нибудь кусочек из другого паззла, но он безошибочно откладывается в сторону, а все внимание сосредоточено на основном. В общем, этот ЩЕЛК! произошел сегодня и все встало на свои места, а ведь еще с утра было очень-очень сложно и от этого грустно...
Ну, а теперь о наболевшем. Меня как котенка бросили в холодную воду. Выплывешь - будешь жить. Жаль, забылил объяснить, как лапками двигать. Впрочем, я и сама догадалась. Но на самом деле весьма неприятно отношение руководства. ВЕСЬМА. Не могу объективно судить времена, когда я была начальником, но с новенькими я никогда так не поступала. Просто посадить человека и, не объяснив самых важных вещей (касающихся правильной проводки документов и отгрузки) - это нонсенс. Любого хорошего руководителя прежде всего должно волновать комфортное ощущение нового сотрудника и его хорошая и грамотная работа. А, видя, что сотрудник работает, практически до всего доходя сам, забить на обучение типа фиг с ним как-нибудь само все уладится... Не знаю. Лично мне, кажется, что для руководителя это неприемлимо. Прежде чем дать человеку самостоятельность (не важно, друзья мои, какой квалификации человек), нужно обучить его, а не подсказывать в режиме он-лайн "нажми вон ту кнопку, а теперь вот эту, а теперь вот так, вот это подставь сюда, это скопируй туда, здесь напечатай это, а теперь сохрани и отправь по почте на склад, когда в его руках изрыгает проклятия телефонная трубка, а у сотрудника шоковое состояние от всего происходящего. ИМХО: хороший руководитель себе такого не позволит. Мало быть хорошим работником. Руководитель должен быть хорошим руководителем прежде всего. Но ИМХО на то и ИМХО, чтобы быть личным мнением конкретного человека. И какое счастье, что мне (уже в который раз, кстати) помогают вовсе посторонние люди, например со склада, которым до нашей работы в принципе не должно быть никакого дела. А они подсказывают и предлагают звонить обязательно, если будут какие-то вопросы. Внимание, а теперь у меня вопрос: какого ж хера мне это все объясняют любые сотрудники любого другого отдела, кроме сотрудников и начальника отдела где я работаю??? Вопрос риторический. Буду упираться. Все равно добьюсь того, что буду работать хорошо и качественно! Потому что точно знаю, что я - смогу. И я это сделаю!!! Даже если через какое-то время (например по истечении испытательного срока) мне это все надоест, я буду уходить с гордо поднятой головой, потому что знаю, умею и могу.
Оптимизьм меня не покидает))))

Title: Do You Know?
Author: r_1353@ Sugar_Pop
Rating: G
Pairing: YUNJAE

A/N: I wrote this last week at 3 a.m in the freaking morning!! Gosh!!

I can't sleep so I took out my lappy and wrote this fic.

I know it's still lacking in many ways but hey, I just want to post this story no matter what..

I've already posted this story in winglin. I've got the idea for this fic when I was listening to my current favourite song, Taeyang's Wedding Dress~

As usual, comments are loved~

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN THEM and this fic is written based on my imagination at the moment.

I DON'T KNOW WHY DOES THE LJ CUT ISN'T WORKING AT THE MOMENT!!! DAMN!!!


A/N 2: This story is told from Jae's POV.

Do you know?

~This is it. The day my heart is shattered to pieces. The day where I witness the love of my life become someone else's husband. It definitely hurt. It hurt damn much. SO FUCKING MUCH!~

Do you know?

~This is it. The day my heart is shattered to pieces. The day where I witness the love of my life become someone else's husband. It definitely hurt. It hurt damn much. SO FUCKING MUCH!~

 

*sigh* You looked so happy in the dressing room talking and having casual talk with all your close friends. I love seeing the sincere smile plastered across your handsome face. *sigh* *pats my chest* *breath in* *breath out* "Let's go Jaejoong! You can do this! You have to be strong! Let him go! Please!" I console myself and try to hold back the tears from flowing freely across my face.

 

Yah Jung Yunho,

Do you know how heavy my step is when I finally arrived here this morning?

I took heavy, long steps in order to ease my aching heart from broken the moment I arrived at the dressing room to see you fully dressed in your black tuxedo and smiling from ear to ear as you were talking to your brother. How I wish I could hold you in my arms at that moment and just be there until tomorrow comes. I wish. *heavy sigh*

 

You smiled at me and I can feel my stomach churned as you make your way towards me. I smiled in return and you gave me a man-hug (the type of hug only given to a close guy friend) I sighed. He whispers in my ear – “Thank you for coming Jae, I really need you today! Thank you so much!” in his husky voice, which in return sends shivers down my spine as I hugged him back and plastered my super fake smile and said – “Of course I will be here to support you Yunnie, I will always be there for you. No worries” Hah! Just as I expected, his answer is just he pinched my nose playfully and whisper a simple “Thank you Joongie-ah, you’re the best!” I pulled away from his embrace and stared at his face without exchanging any words with him. We just stood there, mesmerize at each other’s beauty. I looked away first and lay my head low. You chuckled and pat my shoulder. I sighed. I wish you know Yunho. I wish you know. *sigh*

 

Yunho,

Do you know how I wish you would for once know how I feel and in return, I hope that you also feel the same towards me?

Yeah. I've even dreamt about us. US as in You and Me become a couple for real. I just want to be in that dream where we are the perfect couple and I would never want to wake up.

~Inside the hall~

You keep on smiling and talking happily with people around you. I spaced out again by having this thought. You snapped your fingers in front of my face and saying “Hey Joongie, are you okay? You’re spacing out again. Is there anything bothering you?”

You know me too well to know that I certainly have something in my mind at the moment. DAMN! I hate it when you can read me easily. Am I that easy to be read *sigh* “Nothing Yun. I was thinking about the problem at my office. Hehe. Sorry.” And of course, I beam him my all time favourite fake smile. With hope he doesn’t notice the sadness in my voice. “O.. Ok. If you have any problem, don’t hesitate to tell me. I’ll help you! Ok? “Hey, it’s your special day. Don’t worry Yunnie. It’s nothing I can’t handle. Thanks for your concern. So now, just enjoy your day.”

 

Do you know how hard it is for me to see you at the end of the aisle waiting eagerly for your lovely bride?

How I wish I could stop this wedding from going on, I will! I would do anything is return to be with you for the rest of my living life!

 

Do you know how hard I try to ignore the pain stabbing my heart at the moment?

It hurts.

My heart is shattered to thousands of pieces and I know it can't be mend. Not ever! How I practically massaging my chest at the moment because I can feel my heart is getting sore by the minute. I hope it'll stop pumping before the ceremony starts. Haha. How dumb I can be at desperate times.

 

 

Do you know how hard it is to keep up with this "act" as if it doesn't bother me?

This act of sweetness is just to cover up my bleeding heart which lies underneath this mask I'm putting on. Ouch. I keep on touching my aching chest where my heart lies to help myself sooth down from this entire heartbreaking situation.

 

Do you know that I'm willing to sacrifice all the things I owned so that I can be with you?

I bet you never knew this fact. I'd give up everything I own rather than losing you. Losing you means I have no more purpose to live. Huh. Call me stupid. Yes. Stupid. Coz I fell in love with you in the first place.

 

Do you know that my heart ache to feel your touch?

Even a slight touch can make me the happiest person at this moment. I missed the moments when we are practically like Siamese twins. I just love to be around you, to be in your embrace is a plus point. *sigh* I really missed that time. How I wish I could engraved the precious moments we spend together and hope that time stood still.

 

Do you know that my heart is practically begging itself to be released out of my ribcage?

Even if I tried to stop this wedding, will you choose me over her? I doubt that. Deep in my broken heart I do wish that you would choose me over her but that is far from reality.

 

Do you know how I wish your bride is me?

Yes, for you I willingly become the "girl" in the relationship. *blush* I love being pampered. I just love to walk stunningly on the aisle, smiling and blushing because I know at the end of the aisle is where you, the love of my life will be waiting.

 

Do you know that my eyes is glistening with beads of tears seeing how happy you are standing there waiting for your bride?

Yes. I'm actually crying inside as I saw you waiting happily there for your bride. When you asked why I am crying, I replied that I was just crying tears of happiness because my best friend/brother is getting married and then I can see you beamed at the statement. Well, I LIED! I FUCKING LIED!! Because I just can't afford to throw away your happiness out the door. I rather throw my pride and love into the sea just to have you smiling besides me at this moment.

 

Do you know how miserable I felt you asked me to become your best man?

I felt as if my world is crumbling down on me and the Uppers is playing a prank on me. Do you know how much I suffered because every single day I dreamt of you. You smiled, we smiled, we giggled, we laugh, we teased, and we made love. Yeah. Made love. I even dreamt of us making love. How pathetic.

 

Do you know how I wanted to screams my lungs out when I saw you hugging your soon-to-be wife all the time we are together?

I can feel my face getting red and my mind full of jealousy when you guys acts lovey dovey in front of me. I wish I could just send her away for good and have you all to myself. I. WANT. YOU. How I wish I could tell you that.

 

Do you know how I wanted to wrap my arms around you and tell you I love you with all my heart right now?

The way you whisper to me how nervous you are to see your beautiful bride, make me one thousands times sadder than I already am and I wish I could just turn you around, hug you and confess my feeling to you. But it's no use. I know where I stand and all I know is that it's not besides you.

 

Do you know how I missed the times when we would hang out together and just share the things going on with my life?

I missed the times when we would greet each other each morning because I swear; I could never grow tired of seeing your face every single day of my living years. That small, handsome face of yours.

 

Do you know how depressed I felt because I didn’t confess to you first?

And I thought you have the same feeling towards me but I guess I was wrong when you accepted your father request in marrying the daughter of his long time friend. I was so depressed when you said you agreed to be married to her. That was 1 year ago, when you first know her and ever since that moment, you practically mentioned her in every conversation we have. How I hate that memories!

 

Do you know how force I smiled this whole day just to please you and pretend to be happy for you on your wedding day?

My cheeks ache from these entire forced smile and all but I think it was worth it coz I got to see your fabulous smile besides me.

 

Do you know how badly I wanted to be happy for you at this moment?

Seeing you happy is what brings a smile upon my face. I guess I just have to accept the fact that the person I loved is now going to be married to the person that can brings him happiness and will cherish him after this. How I wish it was me who makes you smile this wide and makes you go gaga over. But man I was wrong. All I could do is just wish. Yeah. A wish that will never going be granted. *shows a weak fake smile*

 

Do you know what should I do now?

I wish you could tell me what I'm supposed to do now because if I keep following my mind and heart, I will definitely end up stopping a wedding or maybe worst, KILLING A PERSON! Oh, help! I'm so lost. *breath in* *breath out* fuhhh~

 

Do you know that I just hope you will be happy with your married life and I really hope that even after marriage, our "friendship" will remain strong?

After much thinking and crying silently in my heart, I'm in no position to stop this wedding. Even if my heart is breaking this very moment seeing you beaming happily waiting for your bride to make her entrance, I have to let you go. I keep gazing at you because I just can't keep my eyes off of you because you're so handsome. Just the way I've dreamt about how you looked like on our "wedding day" and I feel a like a knife is stabbing multiple times in my heart at the moment. Everything and everyone in this hall is nothing compared to this man beside me, the groom is stunningly handsome and gorgeous, and I just can't keep my eyes off of you. Soon, you'll going to be someone else's husband and I just have to let you go. Yeah. Let go. That's the most important thing to do now.

 

Do you know how I wanted to burst into tears when you said 'I do' just now?

You know how terrible I am at holding back my emotions and I also terrible at lying. Yeah. I SUCKED at lying! But hey, who can blame me when the love of my life is getting married in front of my eyes yet I can't do nothing? DAMN! My hands are also sucked at telling lies because I just trembled when passing you your wedding ring. I don't know how much longer I can stand in this position. It hurts so much.

 

Do you know how I wish this ceremony will end immediately so that I can also end my life?

I really hope I die even before I got the invitation to be your best man! I can't live without you by my side. I cried my eyes out everyday thinking that you'll be married to someone other than me and I hate that fact!

 

Now, with the ceremony came to an end, you were asked to kiss your now wife. You gladly take her lips into your own and after the long passionate kiss; you are now pronounced as 'husband and wife' or should I say-- 'Mr and Mrs Jung'. Bearing your surname is my dream since I've fell for you but now, it's shattered. Hmm.. Well.. I guess I should just let you go sooner than today.

 

Do you know how can I say goodbye to you?

I wanted to finally say goodbye to you and let you go but I just can't find the right words to tell you. I HATE MYSELF for not being strong enough to handle this situation!

 

After seeing you and your wife drove away in the white limousine, I felt my heart stop beating and the words 'I love you, Jung Yunho. Good Bye, My Love' escapes my lips as I felt the world turns black.

на этот раз все буднично. теперь Эстония!

Put under a friends-cut for a mighty good reason!
Oh, whatever... I've changed my mind about this. There's no need to hide one's love for a good friend, now is there???

Skip if you don't want to read my eulogy to a good friend, even if I never really knew her very well - there's not a DAY passing when I don't think of her. Every beam of sunlight, and even more, every hint of snow, every teardrop I come across, reminds me of her.

( In search of the appropriate posts to honour one of my dearest friends who left us in 2009 )

Here's to YOU, Chantal! -



"Smiling faces tear your body to the ground -
Covered red that only we can see.
Here in a ball that they made
From the snow on the ground,
See it rolling away
Wild eyes to the sky
They'll never, never know.

Hey there's a Snowman
Hey what a Snowman
Pray for the Snowman
Ooh, Ooh what a Snowman
They say a Snow Year's a Good Year
Filled with the love of All who Lie so Deep."

There's a Snowman looking over all of us, indeed.
Somehow, sadly, 'He' forgot looking over Chantal...

But then again, I don't believe 'Snowman' exists at all. I guess you got my meaning, here.

"They say, a Snow Year's a Good Year,
Filled with the love of all, who lie so deep..."

Genesis - Snowbound - 1978

Oh, snow! SNOW!!!
*Tons* of it the past few days in my shitty little country, where we usually have 'Wimbledon Weather' some ten months a year at least.
WHAT an atmosphere over here the past few days. Trains all came to a hold, no public transport, all of the usual folks hurrying along to get their jobs done suddenly found themselves grounded - by the Force of Nature.

Gaia reared her 'ugly' head, indeed. Or was it 'King Winter'? The 'White Witch', Mrs. Jadis, perhaps? Who knows...

And I happen to like it. Of course, there was a lot of grumbling to be heard, and rightly so, if you found yourself stuck on a cold (-15 degrees C!) and windy railway platform waiting for a train which would 'never show up', as happened to some millions of folks the past few days. Not even to mention the poor folks who ended up being stuck in the Eurostar train between Calais and Britain for two days!

But still - the atmosphere over here was just so pleasant. The beauty of the town, all covered in that pristine *white*, people all smiling, kids playing in the snow, people coming out to take pictures about everywhere, as this is a sight rarely seen over here.
Last time we had so much snow... 1985? 1997? Somewhere around that time I guess.
Oh, and a bit in 2005 as well, I remember... all too well.

And what's more - the snow brought out a lot of creativity on the citizens of Cutesy Town.
This one really made me smile:


This very cheerful fellow - standing at some two meters in height! - appeared in the park close to my home this morning. The fellow's expression is just priceless, so lovely.
( More *Snowman Picspam* - lovely guys that just *appeared* yesterday. )


Just a random tree in Lepelenburg Park. I think it's gorgeous.
( And some further Cutesy Town Picspam. )

That's just it for now, folks. I feel like having to apologize putting up so many pictures (and believe me, I have a lot more, and there's a lot more to come, too!).
Hope you don't mind me...

The remainder of my post will be under a f-lock, as these Snow Pictures happen to remind me of the Big Disaster of one of my best friends having 'left the building' this year.
We had a massive snow fight back in 2005... and I remember so well...
Ah sorry. Don't want to bother you all with THAT.

Just remember: "A Snow Year's A Good Year!"

а хотел в Москву попасть, да и в Обнинск пришлось в объезд добираться. Снег опять ВНЕЗАПНО пошел?

Последние дни с инетом в Калуге творилась какая-то беспросветная жопа. По слухам авария на магистрали.

Фотик благополучно доехал к покупателю, я получил свои деньги и пришло время посчитать чистую прибыль.

Наложенный платеж -- это очень большие накладные расходы. За посылку в 2 кг и ценностью 10 тыр пришлось в сумме отдать почти 1.5 штуки (за пересылку туда + за перевод назад). Плюс, почта по еблански расчитывает стоимость пересылки -- в нее входит ценность посылки, поэтому включить стоимость пересылки в наложенный платеж получается очень приблизительно.

Но это единственный способ, которым можно продать вещь в другой город.

My friend DeHuiz approached me just ten minutes ago for a Bridge match tonight. Alas, I'm still covered in wall paint, so I decided to give it a miss (why is it that I always end up being painted myself whenever I'm supposed to apply paint to about anything else???).
I have to admit I miss playing the game myself. Perhaps next week again... if I can find the courage, me and partner M.S. getting blasted away as the 'Clowns of the Tournament' at my last attempt, with the 'fantastic' score of 36%, wasn't exactly a 'pleasure', heh. It was funny, though.

And Birdman isn't doing any better lately. He had his final chance of moving up to a higher league last week, but failed doing so with a mere 1% difference in scores with the #4 (#1 - #4 move on). Meh. Glad I wasn't there to watch it. As good as the atmosphere in his team still is, I wouldn't be all too surprised if I get an invitation to join in somewhere next year again, which would mean no less than the 'Resurrection of the Most Hilarious Bridge Partnership Ever'. Might be a good idea to talk it over tonight.

After all -
"What's the main difference between a Bridge Partner and a Serial Killer?"
"The Serial Killer's deeds are understandable." :p

Okay, an excuse beforehand - post contains nothing else than silly rambling about the Solly Home - and my renovation jobs. You've been warned.

( I love to work with my hands. I really do. )

( So this time, it would be *Total Demolition*. )

But you know how it is? You fix one thing, up comes the next problem.
Cause, eh - when removing The Monster, I noticed the dreadful state of my walls, my carpet, etc. So you might have guessed it - I'll be rather busy the coming week. It'll be a complete renovation of the room. Good thing the energy, so lacking a couple of weeks ago, seems to be fully back. :bouncy:

Oh, even while I've been thinking about it for some time, I'm not going to paint those walls Pink. It's hard to restrain myself on that right now, though.
[EDIT:] as of today, the wall is Baby Blue.